My heart long
For empty arms
to be but a memory
I cry out to you, Lord
Hear my plea
A baby
I know you are there
In this silence
I hold on to the promises
That you have spoken
Yet, here I am
Waiting, still waiting
The tears I cry
And fears I fight
Waiting, Lord, still waiting
For you to answer me
Can’t you hear my plea
Can you see
How my heart aches
For a new life
To grow inside of me
I know you are there
In this silence
I hold on to the promises
You have spoken
Yet, here I am
Waiting, still waiting
The tears I cry
And fears I fight
Waiting, Lord, still waiting
Will You fulfill this desire
Or please, take it from my heart
Lord I’m so tired
Of rejoicing with so many
Just to cry, when they cannot see
When it’s just us three
You, Joe and me
Bridge:
What about the promises
You gave
What about the tears
I’ve cried
And the fears
I fight
My heart that breaks,
Tonight
Waiting, still waiting
Waiting, Lord, still
Waiting
I still hold to your promises
That I cherish in my heart
I know you are good
And all your promises
Are yes and amen
You’ll never fail
But the hurt is still so real
The tears cried won’t dry
Yet, here I am
Waiting, still waiting
All the tears I cried
All the fears I fought
Here I am oh Lord, still waiting
But even now, I praise you Lord
As I bow
As I bow
Lay your promises
and my life down
and my life down
At your feet again
As I worship
Even as my hearts cry
Here I am
Waiting, still waiting
All the tears I cried
All the fears I fought
Yet I will say, Oh Lord
Have your way
As I wait, Jesus
I wait for you
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I’m not exactly sure when I
started writing this song. I’m pretty sure it was the summer of 2012.
It’s
taken me a while to be comfortable sharing this specific song.
I’m sharing it to let other
women and couples know it is OK to feel what they feel while going through the
uncertainty of trying to start or add to their family. I have a friend whose
desire for children was never realized. God never answered her prayer for
children. The pain is real… But this gives me a very unique perspective. Between
the two perspectives, I realized there needs to be a voice that says how we
feel inside; to give a voice and to help others understand where we are coming
from…
I do want to make a note...
To those who might feel guilty after
reading this song because you have shared with us or will share about being pregnant or having
a child...
Don’t…This
is the one thing that’s really hard to understand unless you have gone through
it. Those of us struggling to start or add to our families, do not wish you ill
or want to you to be guilty of feeling joy. We really want to rejoice with you!
And we do! And if we cry, it’s because we are happy for you and have deeper
appreciation for life. And when we cry behind closed doors, it’s because we
long for the same thing, not because we are bitter toward you. So tell me with
all the excitement in your heart, I for one want to know. And besides, I know one-way-or-the-other, my day is coming!
